She was killed in a car accident aged 69 three months before Christmas 2016, so yes, here one minute and then gone. Nothing replaces a hug but hear the words your mum would say to you and that will help get you through.

Brought two of these memorial keepsakes - one for myself in memory of my brother who passed away last year and another for my mum who lost her father recently. I always thought my kids wojld grow up with her round the corner and as part of the furniture and now there is just a feeling of huge emptiness. The ratings/reviews displayed here may not be representative of every listing on this page, or of every review for these listings. As you said I really just wanted to hide away and it’s such a strain being around other extended family.It's sad that you're not with us at this lovely time of year, But we have precious memories of when you both were here. Inspector David Gibson said: ‘We are becoming increasingly concerned for Iona and her children’s welfare and are keen to trace them as soon as possible. I will be spending this Christmas missing my husband who passed away out of the blue on a flight 8 weeks ago.

I miss hearing their voices, I miss the daft faces my mum used to pull at me, I miss the awesome cuddles my dad used to give - no other cuddles match up to them, even DH's. From things like DDs first day at school, to her first nativity and big things like me getting married.

Dont feel like you should be doing anything , you have suffered the worst thing ever losing your mum.

You made each Christmas special, the way it's meant to be, and filled with love and kindness and generosity.And I just feel so guilty that I’m not doing my best for my kids so they have the most amazing time. So lately I've been really struggling with the loss of my mum, though she passed away over 5 years ago now just before I turned 15. After the initial shock had passed, came a grief so intense that it was overwhelming and often repressed. Any kind of disruption to family gatherings, even a new home or change in menu, can be met with scepticism. We learned that she had had central nervous system (CNS) lymphoma, but they said the odds were good.

I would say it does get easier with time - and the memories become a comfort rather than feeling overwhelmingly sad. My mum said to me as she was dying that she'd always be with me and I believe that, as we were so close.I think it’s just worse that I feel like I’m having to explain myself to people, that I’m not actually in the mood for Christmas parties and I don’t want to be a big hostess for my dad and stepmum or the in laws on xmas day, none of them say anything to me anymore or ask how I am/ how I’m coping. Read more about the condition New: A brand-new, unused, unopened and undamaged item in original retail packaging (where packaging is applicable). But Christmas it’s just becoming unbearable again, to the point where I am breaking down in front of my children all the time (they are 3 and 1), feeling that excruciating pain and longing like I just have to see her, and just howling like a small child that I need my mum. I think because I was still feeling relief from him not suffering anymore and mum and the rest of us not having to constantly run to and from hospital. His passion from childhood, however, was flying: he got his pilot’s licence at Biggin Hill when he was 20, and flew small planes and gliders for years.